You Have Entered HELL

Mon, 16 Mar 2009 05:44:28 GMT

I GOT ACCEPTED INTO UC SANTA CRUZ IM FINALLY LEAVING NOVATO WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO finally

Wed, 05 Nov 2008 05:22:23 GMT

Happy Obama day folks

http://garfieldminusgarfield.net/

PROP 2 BAKESALE AND GARAGE SALE!

Tue, 19 Aug 2008 04:33:06 GMT

For all of you Californians out there, hopefully you already know about Proposition 2 and how important it gets passed in the November elections. (in case you dont know about it go here http://www.humanecalifornia.org/)
I will be reminding y'all more and more as the time gets closer.

For all of you who live in the bay area(specifically close to marin/san rafael) you should totally come on out to this garage sale and buy stuff/vegan baked goods or even donate and Volunteer your time/baked goods or donate stuff for the garage sale

If you can please email Kate Danaher at katedanaher@animalearthhuman.org if you have stuff to donate or time to volunteer. Here is the forwarded email she sent me.

YES! ON PROP 2
MARIN GARAGE SALE
FOR THE ANIMALS!
SAT, AUG 23rd
9AM-4PM

UPDATE

Thank you everyone who has offered to help with this garage sale for the animals. It’s gonna be fun!! We’re hoping to raise at least $500 for the day and anything you can do to help us reach this goal for the animals would be much appreciated! The opposition is well financed. The sponsors of this initiative are restricted in the amount of money they can donate. We need to help raise much needed funds to purchase TV commercials to show millions of Californians the horrible conditions that animals in factory farms endure.

LOCATION
First United Methodist Church
9 Ross Valley
San Rafael, CA 94901
Corner of Greenfield and Miracle Mile

WE NEED HELP WITH
Quality Donations to sell
Baked Goods (preferably vegan) to sell
Materials & People to make signs for neighborhood, bake sale table, Prop 2 info table on Friday, Aug 22nd, 3P-7P
People with healthy backs to help set up tables and move larger, heavier sale donations on Sat, Aug 23 8AM
People to man garage sale area, bake sale table and prop 2 table
Materials & People to festively decorate the parking lot and sale and table areas
People to help Set-up
People to help Tear Down

DROP OFF – FRI, 8/22, 3P-7P or SAT, 8/23, by 9AM
We have the inside of the church on the day/eve before to organize. Donations can be dropped off either Friday, August 22nd between 3P-7P or by 9AM on Saturday. Please attach suggested prices to your items. Baked goods can also be dropped off either Friday, August 22nd between 3P-7P or by 9AM on Saturday.

PREP - FRI, 8/22, 3P-7P
If you can help with prepping signs, baking goods (there is a kitchen) or organizing donations on Friday please come! I’ll be there from 3P-7P or earlier or later if necessary!

Mon, 17 Dec 2007 00:30:01 GMT

Its hard. This. This living and figuring out these strange ambiguous connections i have with people. That one has a girlfriend and is fucking teasing me.(sidenote: he answered the fucking door in his boxer briefs, when I was a half an hour late, he fucking passed notes to me all througout class, I want to at least be his friend. at least. I think he's confusing me on purpose because i ignored him in class all those times. I have no idea actually. Hes a goddamn asshole if he was fucking flirting with me, showing up at my house with a box of wine,and has a girlfriend. You have already tasted men like that, you are hopelessly attracted to assholes) That one had a girlfriend but is emotionally crazy. That one is in love with me but too depressed to be loved. That one i could have fallen for but he didnt want me, or he saw life and affection as useless things relative to knowledge and nicotine.
I suppose this is my life AGAIN telling me to not have a relationship. Perhaps I should listen. Im have so much to learn asn experience ahead of me. I sm still jumping into things. Im sorry. I dont know where it went but I lost the motivation to do well in school. I think it was because of emotional trauma. Or perhaps this medication. It is easy to blame it upon other things besides laziness. beautiful laziness.

Tue, 24 Jul 2007 04:38:32 GMT

well here i am again in an attempt to accurately depict my external and internal life as ellequently as possible. Life has been utterly stagnant. I find that I sit at my new house after work and do mostly nothing except wish that I had something worthwhile to do. I could get drunk and high all the time, but for reasons unknown to me, those actions' former radiant luster and enticing qualities have faded. I moved away from novato and acquire a job, where 6 days a week I exchange at least 5 hours of my life, per day, for simulated autonomy. Because of this (among other reasons), my once eclectic assemblage of friends has tapered into a small few. I predict soon that the one that I spend the most time with, the one who, at least seemingly, sees the world in somewhat of the same filter that I do, will no longer be my friend when I tell him we cannot be lovers. That will cause my situation to go from bad to worse. Externally I have been told to be a lawer and a politician. Internally I have only meek whispers validating those commands. I mostly do not hear anything worthwhile from my thoughts nowadays, only self-doubt, and self-loathing. I find its hard to concentrate on anything. I try to read to educate myself to fuel and solidify my arguments, but nothing keeps my interest anymore. I try to paint but cant finish anything. I about 90% of my paintings are unfinished, and every book on my shelf has only been read halfway through at most.

Mon, 30 Apr 2007 06:02:42 GMT

here is something that may be important that someone allowed me to discover...

every thought that you have, about anything

when I say the word "baby" or "book" or "suburbs" or "oil" "mother" "love" or any word/ image/sound/smell/ texture for that matter, what comes to your mind? What feelings do you have when you experience these things? what is the string of thoughts that come to your mind?
everything that you were thinking are just what has been programmed in your mind based on social observation and what you have been surrounded with since you were brought into the world.
Our social constructs tell you what is or isnt and what to believe and think. Could the human mind have more possibility than this? If someone was raised entirely to believe that he could fly and had no doubt in their mind that they could fly, could they fly? It is scientifically proven(but what is science anyway~ a tangent about science later~) that everything around us, every measurable material thing that has atoms is affected by consciousness. Has the human mind created the world and everything around us? Why then did we create this box, this box of false reality when there is potentially unlimited possibilities of what could be. We all collectively create this world, but individually we control our own experience and what we allow and attract into our lives

~tangent about science~
science is not an explanation of the world. It is how the processes of the earth and universe function-not why they function- science has no explanation of why it does as it does, they can just observe it with their 5 senses and attach words and numbers to what they interpret.
If we control what we observe, then is science a reliable source of knowledge about our surroundings? As people were "discovering" more and more about the observable world, were our minds just making it up as they went along? Science is always data that is interpreted by an observer, labeled a certain way, and subject to an infinite amount of relabeling as new data and interpretations arrive.

I have more to say but im tired and have school on the 'morrow. Night.

Thu, 19 Apr 2007 00:36:36 GMT

ANYONE GOING TO SANTA CRUZ FOR ON FRIDAY/420

If so, could I get a ride?

Mon, 02 Apr 2007 04:22:12 GMT

how can I describe my life right now in words/ I dont think I accurately can. but this is my attempt to in order to place more meaning and importance on my own thoughts. I cant decide if i am learning important things or not. i am. Important things have happened in my life. i dont love you but you are nice to heal and be around. I dont know how to be around you, or how to make you laugh. I know how to be affectionate towards you. I know how to debate you. I think we are two directions pointed away from each other. I wish for two brothers. Two brothers like Jeff, to be there for me, to be wacky and hilarious and people i like myself around. People to go skinny dipping with and take drugs and have a blast at the exploritorium. also brothers to have insightful conversations with, old deep connections with, to grow with and experience with.

My life has been confusing. My mom says i am in between great transition, and I know its true. I cant help but cry all the time, im so incredibly depressed, my passions are being held back, they come and go. My mom says my fear of failure is holding me back. I think she's right. I am at the beginning of a series of very hard classes. physics,chemistry(mostly),biology, .Im incredibly excited and yet completely uninterested. My former therapist tells me I should take antidepressants. My mom said I should talk to her hypnotherapist who is more holistic. I resent my father a lot. He's obsessed with the stock market. When he goes to the grocery store he comes back with paper plates and proctor & gamble deodorant and TRIES TO HIDE IT FROM ME. He goes around my fucking back. I would prefer if he just outright told me that he doesnt give a fuck about animals or he envronment.

I find I have a very difficult time sleeping at night. It takes me about 3 hours or more to fall asleep every night. I wake up early in the morning and cant fall asleep again. Sometimes I wake up at night and start crying caused by thoughts of our current political climate, (watch loose change 2nd edition and Why We Fight),social climate, meat/ diary industry(factory farming)& animal based clothing industries, and most of all Industrialization in general. Industrialized nations fat with imported "goods" stripped from impoverished lands(most often made poorer by this process) and shipped millions of miles to be processed and packaged, and then shipped thousands of miles to be consumed by hairless bipedal primates. Mcdonlalds signs and cement rivers everywhere. Fast pieces of metal exhaling fumes for plants and pedestrians to breathe. every 10 minutes a new oil refinery appears where dense biodiversity once existed.

Anthropocentrism pissing on every fucking corner of the earth.

I resent everyone around me. I dont know exactly why. perhaps because they dont know. Or rather they know, but they dont seem to particularly care .
we are all oblivious selfish sponges, sucking and sucking on sweet deceptive convenience. Or at least the industrialized nations...

I either want to kill myself, or kill everyone around me

Sun, 04 Feb 2007 04:23:36 GMT

moribund \MOR-uh-bund\, adjective:

1. In a dying state; dying; at the point of death.
2. Becoming obsolete or inactive.

humanity

Many anthropocentric ethical arguments are based on the notion that humans have free will whereas animals are chained down by instinct. what about humans being tied down to emotion, emotion placed on material goods

i overreacted, i didnt even listen to her opinion

must be the season of the witch, im exctied to see travis tomorrow, I love him i think about him a lot

i got into a big argument with alexis about environmental problems. she doesnt believe that its a problem
she thinks its her right as an american to consume comfort goods

Sun, 29 Oct 2006 06:45:28 GMT

for some reason nightmare before christmas is coming out AGAIN and along with it is a soundtrack compiled of pop band covers of the original songs in Disney's desperate attempt at reclaiming their hulking commercial empire

the ones ive heard:

Panic at the disco!- this is halloween
uhh it sounds almost exactly like the original version except more wiener-ee. the whole point of doing a cover is to take the lyrics and music and put your own spin on it.
there is also a marilyn manson cover of this song which is better but at the same time im dissappointed in him for giving into this corporate ploy to leech as much money out of hot topic kids as possible

she wants revenge- kidnap the sandy clause
i think this band was a poor choice for this song... or any song on this soundtrack or any cover song anywhere. SWR can do its own little cute cake wannabe songs for so long but I think they should be limited to that and not allowed to trample on other peoples creative works

fall out boy- whats this
I was surprised because i dont really like this band, but they did a pretty good cover for a pop punk band

fiona apple- sally's song
in my opinion the best song of all the songs above. I highly recommend raping it off the internet , even though, again, im dissapointed in the participation in this over-exhaustion of the movie for monetary purposes

http://www.projectcensored.org/

Fri, 06 Oct 2006 17:04:19 GMT

http://www.projectcensored.org/

http://www.projectcensored.org/

http://www.projectcensored.org/

ignorance is too comfortable

Thu, 14 Sep 2006 23:29:49 GMT

Me : "I made some broccoli dad"
My dad: " No sheila, you didnt make broccoli, god made broccoli. You just cooked it"

Fri, 11 Aug 2006 23:14:01 GMT

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Mon, 24 Jul 2006 04:19:36 GMT

I dont know what I need in my life anymore. Its too hot to feel, im too damp from sweat to say. I Im beginning to feel compassion for those other than myself. Im beginning to put myself in other peoples shoes. I have only scratched the surface however, I have so much more to learn. I am also beginning to want to learn. The heat is creating lethargy and confusion, after affects of global warming are beginning to reach america. I hope they change their ways. I hope we can rise above the money and survive.

My mom is constantly saying no to me, telling me im wrong in my ways and thoughts. She was always told that when she was growing up.

I cant feel my feelings.

Sun, 16 Jul 2006 03:12:35 GMT

PENIS CLOUD!!!!

went to hawaii with my mom and brother
here are the rest...
http://hawaii.studio721.com/

Wed, 14 Jun 2006 02:04:36 GMT

here is a thought.

why is it taboo for someone to be naked in public. if "its indecent' is your answer,why do we feel like its indecent. What harm does it do to us? what about homosexuality or transgendered peoples? why do we set ideals on what a woman or man should be or act. Or why one person can only love one other person, or only have sexual relations with one other person, and why we have to be jealous and possessive of our lover. why is instant fame and attention a result of how much currency we have to our name? why are people who are unkept and untidy also looked down upon? What about taking a dump in public, or having sex in public? aside from the mess it sometimes leaves, why is it considered obscene and wrong? Why are mean to those who are less "attractive"? why are we so uptight about nudity violence and self-expression especially in america? Or what about those who have imagination and silliness and wackiness. WHy is that looked down upon and structure discipline and status-quo glorified?
why racism or the importance of politeness or how good we are at dancing? why all these ideals. Im sure a lot of them surfaced as a result of religion, but why would we choose to constrain our freedoms as human beings?
I feel like the hippies had it right in the late 60's and 70's. Free love, renouncement of material objects, stripping down the ideals of what should be, to lay bare the notion that people can just be.

Tue, 30 May 2006 05:56:47 GMT

im feeling rather pathetic as of late.

where did all the boys go in my life?
hmm...

Tue, 23 May 2006 06:48:56 GMT

Oh. Im so cool. I just got dumped. awesome. single again, dumped again, alone again. I must be the coolest person ever.

Tue, 16 May 2006 23:05:35 GMT

Oh I think I found him...

Im way too excited to not pee my pants

Sun, 14 May 2006 16:56:06 GMT

I think it would be in your best interest to kill me. Please. You can have all my material goods . Just let me go. Oh and my dad is gone all week. Again.

I need to do my child development homework.

Mon, 08 May 2006 02:26:56 GMT

yeah I cut my hair again....its really ... really short. I love it but I dont know how much others will like it. Others being attractive boys.

Oh well.

Thu, 04 May 2006 19:04:26 GMT

Put your music player on shuffle. Press forward for each question.
Use the song title as the answer to the question.

How am I feeling today? "you are so Beautiful"- Louie Armstrong

Will I get far in life? "I like big Butts" - (cover) Richard Cheese

How do my friends see me? "All Night Lazy"- Add N to (X)

Where will I get married? "angels fuck, devils kiss"- Jack off Jill ( soo... las vegas?)

What is my best friend's theme song? "Let me be" - Xavier Rudd

What is the story of my life? "Black Crow)-Jamiroquai (pffft)

What's high school like? "the rain song" - led zeppelin

How can I get ahead in life? "nobody's fault but mine"-led zeppelin

What is the best thing about me? "hail, hail"-pearl Jam

What is today going to be like? "Bitch Please" - Snoop Dogg feat. Xzibit ( hahahhahah yeah)

What is in store for this weekend? "Apple Bomb"-deerhoof ( uhh I hope not, tht would be messy)

What song describes my parents? "Im hot for teacher"-(cover) Richard Cheese (hahahha my dad sings that song alll the time)

How is my life going? "Jumping Jack Flash"- Rolling Stones ( yeah)

What song will they play at my funeral? "Apples in the trees"- Mirah

How does the world see me? "Jesus Christ Pose"- Soundgarden ( uhh...)

Will I have a happy life? "The Mission" - Enya

What do my friends really think of me? "Because"- the beatles

Do people secretly lust after me? "Discotraxx" - ladytron

How can I make myself happy? "stumble then rise on some awkward morning"-The silver mt zion memorial orchestra & tra la la band

What should I do with my life? "Take off your cool"- outkast

Will I ever have children? "frank sinatra" - mIss kitten

What will you name them? "I think I love you"-David Cassidy

Who will you marry? "hear my train a comin" - Bernard Allison

Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? " first it givith"- queens of the stone age

Wed, 03 May 2006 02:12:47 GMT

http://www.peta.org/MC/NewsItem.asp?id=8260

hahaha I wish I could have been there

A GROOOD PARTY

Mon, 01 May 2006 02:02:59 GMT

yeah that was really fun. Im glad me and Linda did it. Thankyou everyone for coming. I love you all.

So I asked out a boy at the party.
I had been planning this for a while

our conversation

*silence*

me: "so... I uhh... have a crush on you"

him: *silence yet with an astonished face*

me: "uhh just, thought Id put that out there... just to let you know"

him:" Im glad to hear that... I mean I feel the same way"

me: "thats really good to know... "

*silence*

me :" so we should like.... go on some dates or something..."

I thought that was just humorous in its awkwardness.
But yeah, poon tang ahoy.

Oh and camelpi's first performance was last night and it was SPECTACULAR.... as was high five hospital....

me: " linda its time to go on now, we have to perform"

linda: "but....wait, I need more time to get drunk..."

Sat, 29 Apr 2006 21:31:45 GMT

OK SO he's gone but he might come back at 10....that just means to be wary....